Hip Hop Pantsula (HHP), real name Jabulani Tsambo, tried to commit suicide three times in 2015, he revealed in an interview with Gareth Cliff on Cliff Central yesterday.
HHP went full blast about what has been happening in his life, also explaining why he was not on Twitter anymore.
HHP, also known as Jabba, said the first two suicide attempts came as he was struggling to get gigs and radio stations were not playing his music anymore.
“I thought to myself, radio is starting to play trap music only and I cannot do trap music,” as a result, he says he felt like a loser.
On the first attempt, Jabba said he waited for his children to go to school, went into his garage and tried committing suicide through carbon monoxide poisoning, which did not work after an hour of inhaling the gas. He then asked his friend for his car to attempt the suicide again, which did not work.
The third and last time he tried suicide was after he had a “silly” fight with his girlfriend. He waited for her to leave the house and tried helium poisoning which also failed.
HHP said he had prepared for his death as he called his financial manager before and asked him if they covered suicide, he said he made sure his son’s education fund was also in check as he could go to school until he was 28.
HPP, however, said he tried counselling first before suicide attempts but could not continue as they were expensive.
After the suicide attempts, HHP says he heard a voice tell him “If you really want to die, you need to live”, that’s when he decided to stop with his attempts.
Speaking on why he was not on Twitter anymore, HHP said he could not stay on the social networking site as he felt 140 characters were not enough to express himself in what he described as a “toxic” environment. He criticised people on Twitter for not being “able to think beyond the 140 characters”.
“Even if I say I feel like a peanut butter and jam sandwhich, someone will retweet and say “oh so you hate Cassper now, Jabba has beef now’.”
The statement follows HHP’s correction of a tweet that claimed Cassper Nyovest was the first South African rap artist to sell platinum twice. HHP said he had also sold two platinum albums, resulting in a backlash from Cassper’s fans, saying he has beef with Cassper.