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3 Nov 2017
3:48 pm

Simphiwe writes heartbreaking post on losing Dumi Masilela 3 months after his death

Citizen Reporter

Simphiwe Ngema has been a widow for three months since her husband, Dumi Masilela, was killed in an attempted hijacking.

Dumi Masilela and wife Simphiwe Ngema. Picture: Instagram

Dumi had been visiting a friend in Tembisa when a black Jeep approached their vehicle. They tried to flee, but the Jeep gave chase, and the occupants opened fire. He later died in hospital.

Ngema took to Instagram on Friday morning to share her grief with her followers, explaining what she had been going through in the last three months.

“It’s been three months since I lost my husband. Three months of sleepless nights, trauma, anxiety attacks, crying uncontrollably, anger, excruciating pain, loneliness, denial, bargaining and a lot of unanswered questions that leave me paralysed with fear,” she wrote.

She said that some days felt like she was not getting better, and that she had decided to take it one moment at a time.

“Some days feel like I haven’t moved or feel like it’s not getting better. I’ve just learnt to take it one breath at a time. I don’t know what tomorrow holds, I still don’t know what God’s plan is, and the thought of a future without ‘our future’ still makes me anxious, all I can do is trust God. He is all I know. I am holding on to him with broken hands, but still holding on nonetheless,” she added.

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03-11-17. It's been 3months since I lost my husband. 3months of sleepless nights, trauma, anxiety attacks, crying uncontrollably, anger, excruciating pain, loneliness, denial, bargaining and a lot of unanswered questions that leave me paralysed with fear. Some days feel like I haven't moved or feel like it's not getting better. I've just learnt to take it one breath at a time. I don't know what tomorrow holds, I still don't know what God's plan is and the thought of a future without "our future" still makes me anxious, all I can do is trust God. He is all I know. I am holding onto him with broken hands but still holding on nonetheless. I miss you terribly! My boongy @dmasilela ???????? #eternalcrush

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Simphiwe and Dumi got married in a traditional wedding in May this year. Dumi played the role of Sifiso Ngema on e.tv’s Rhythm City.