Earlier this week, the world was saddened by the devastating announcement that Zen, the son of comedian Nick Cannon and supermodel Alyssa Scott had passed away.
During his daytime show on Tuesday, Cannon announced to the world that his five-month-old baby had passed away from brain cancer, and also mentioned all the struggles and pain he and Alyssa had to go through with their son, adding that Alyssa was “the strongest woman I’ve ever seen”.
On Thursday morning, Scott took to social media to share an adorable video of all the never-before-seen precious moments which she had shared with her late baby boy.
In her touching message to Zen, she starts off by recalling moments she had after Zen’s passing, her transition from having Zen in her life to accepting that he is no longer around.
“Oh my sweet Zen. The soreness I felt in my arm from holding you is slowly fading away. It’s a painful reminder that you are no longer here. I caught myself looking in the backseat as I was driving only to see the mirror no longer reflecting your perfect face back at me.
“When I close a door too loudly I hold my breath and wince knowing a soft cry will shortly follow. It doesn’t come. The silence is deafening,” said Scott.
She then goes on to mention how her and Zen were the perfect team, and how they both helped each other keep strong despite the challenges they faced.
“These last five months we have been in this race together. We would hand the baton off to each other. You kept me going. It would be the middle of the night and you would smile at me.
“A surge of energy would fill my body and pure joy would radiate from within me. We were a team, both determined to see it through,” said the model.
She then ends of her message by saying how difficult life has been since his passing, but that she is being carried by Zen’s sister, God and strangers who keep sending her comforting messages.
“It feels unbearable running without you now. I can’t. And in this moment I feel myself being carried. By your sister.. By God. By complete strangers encouraging me to not give up . It has been an honor and privilege being your mommy.. I will love you for eternity,” said Scott.