I’ve realised that to try and understand the exact pattern and workings of a newborn baby is the same as trying to smell the colour blue, you can’t.
These past two weeks I was at home with my wife and Liah and realised that no matter how much you think you know; you know nothing at all. You can prepare and have all the info to raise your child but let me tell you one thing you can doubt yourself in an instant if your remedy doesn’t work immediately. We have been doing well and she has a very nice routine for sleeping four hours and then rinse and repeat but the instant she didn’t fall asleep immediately our minds started racing.
I made the biggest mistake you can make when it comes to anything health related, I consulted Google. There I found at least 100 things it can and cannot be all at once and then my wife and I started playing the ‘What If’ game and boy that’s a great game to play at 1 in the morning. What if it’s a hard tummy? What if the breast milk wasn’t enough? What if we are actually doing a great job but we listen to other people too much instead of trusting our instincts?
We put so much pressure on ourselves without realising it because of the many, many, many people who always want to tell you what to do with your child. We attended ante natal classes at Life Cosmos Hospital and were helped by two angels that roam earth, Louise and Anne-Marie. They taught us about what to expect, what to do and mostly who not to listen to. They even went as far as to come to our house when my wife was having troubles with breast feeding and we will forever be thankful to them. They taught us one important thing, stop doubting yourself. We all do it in some way, even without having children but we should just realise that no matter what, we are enough.
Liah is looking at me with eyes that can melt any heart and my wife is half passed out on the bed when all of a sudden I hear a thunderous noise out of nowhere and suddenly she’s fast asleep. I won’t tempt fate and wonder why, I’ll just accept it.
