‘And as he removed that crucial piece, he felt like he was whole once more’
Recently I had to go through something that I would classify as the worst pain I have ever had; I had to get a tooth removed because of an infection. Luckily it’s not one that’s visible, but still I felt I lost a part of myself, like I could’ve done something to prevent it. The pain started a few days ago and before I knew it I was curling up into a ball to the point where I almost had tears in my eyes whilst looking at my wife.
It felt so surreal knowing that one little thing like that could cause my whole life to turn upside down. The searing pain in my jaw rendered me useless whilst I held Liah and fed her a bottle. I felt like ‘less of a man’ because how could one tooth get the better of me? How could I allow that in the first place? Then it came to the dentist.
She took one look at it and said “it has to go”. Not being one to argue or even a dentist for that fact I agreed and braced myself for the worst, but apparently I didn’t brace hard enough. The pain shot through my whole being and woke me up from whichever comfort zone I thought I was presiding in but the most amazing thing happened afterwards: I felt like myself again. I felt complete again like the ‘bad’ was erased from my life. I felt human once more.
This is what envy, jealousy, hatred, emotional and physical manipulation makes you feel like; a toothache. You try and manage it, then it might get the better of you and in the end you need someone on the outside to tell you that “it’s got to go”. We need to remove the things from our lives that cause us pain and appreciate the things that make us feel alive. We need to “clean” ourselves of the rotten things in our life, it’s never too late.
After I got home I held my toothbrush with a new sense of appreciation. Today, yes today I will start to clean up real good.
