Today was the first time I experienced feeling powerless since I became a dad.
Being a parent is easy and hard and sometimes somewhere in between but when your infant is sick and you have no idea what’s wrong, that’s when you start realising how powerless you can feel. You want to fix them and keep them safe and healthy, but you can’t always be in time to help.
Our little girl has recently fell victim to our wonderful cities ‘clean air’ and first developed a snotty nose. Then in one day it worsened and after a while she was struggling to keep her milk in. My wife rushed to the doctor and we received medication and after the first dosage she was already smiling a bit more and feeling more like herself. The feeling of relief that washes over you when you see improvement is indescribable.
See the thing that makes it worse is the fact that Liah can’t tell us in words what is wrong. It’s a guessing game but it feels like somehow you never guess right the first time. We all try to fix something or someone in our lives, not just our kids and loved ones. Sometimes they tell us what’s wrong but mostly we keep guessing and hope to help in some matter.
Take our city for example, we want to help it but it’s not telling us what’s wrong. We want to fix all the parts that are broken but we keep guessing wrong. We aren’t informed enough to know what needs to be done but still we have hope every day that we can do something to make it better.
Liah is finally drinking a new bottle and I swear I could see her wink at me while she drank. Seems we guessed right this time.
